Layers...

They are onions.

Just like onions have layers, so do our emotions.  The last six months have been incredible for Adam and I ~ a journey neither one expected but one we would never want to do with anyone else. 

Sunday marked the six-month anniversary of delivering Madison.  As I sit four months pregnant, my emotions are up and down and back again.  The trauma of losing a child and the joys of expecting triplets...the heartache of loss and the love of new beginnings...yet under it all lies a layer of fear.  I hate being afraid, especially of things that I have no control over.  Yet I am afraid. 

Many might think that I am afraid of what is to come.  This is simply not the case.  While I know our world is going to flipped upside (wait it already has been), both Adam and I want nothing more than to endure and survive and celebrate our wonderful babies.  We are not afraid of the future...we are fearful of the past repeating itself. 

Yet, we have no control over God's choices and decisions.  We are simply here to live the best lives we can, with the blessings we have, and to always try to be better people for both.  While I can write/say this, it does not change the fact that every day we are afraid this miraculous gift will be taken away from us.  So please, while you are saying your daily prayers, we would be honored if you would include our three precious growing babies.


Speaking of our growing babies, we are now the size of ONIONS.  We have reached week 17 and according to the online size chart, a singleton baby would be the size of an onion, weighing approximately 5.9 ounces and measuring 5.1 inches in length.


 

 





If you recall, last week a singleton baby was only weighing in at 3.5 ounces...this means a singleton baby would have almost doubled in size in a week....hmmm...




We have a doctor free week so I have no updates on our babies' sizes but if they doubled in size, our runt (baby a) would be approximately 8 ounces and our slacker babies (babies b & c) would be almost 10 ounces each!!  Talk about getting big!  All we can hope is they are growing and thriving  : )  We will see them next week for our 18 week check up with Dr. Weber (that's right we get a travel break and will stay in Eau Claire).

For those of you who like to imagine just how big I am getting...at mediation yesterday, the defendant stated "Maybe you'll go into labor and then I won't have to worry about this today." 

Sorry bud!  My onions have a little longer yet to bake!